Surprise, Surprise

So.... many people know someone that this type of thing happens to, we kinda hoped it would happen to us, but we never thought it would be so quickly.  If you havent made any guesses yet, and dont already know.... I am pregnant!  Yes, once again we are embarking on the journey of maternity.  We are hopeful that Xander was the miracle we needed in our family to open the doorway for others.  So far everything is looking really good, but only time will tell if this is the magic one that sticks!  This is Number 8 biologically for us.  All the other pregnancies, (other than lucky #7) were conceived through fertility, this one.... Surprise!  That in and of itself, is quite exciting as we didnt think it was really possible for us to conceive without some medical treatments, and the last two have proven that despite the past almost 6 years of nothing.... guess what... we can get pregnant on our own!  Also, all the other losses have been completely independent of each other.  All the tests that we have been able to run show there is no reason that if everything works correctly biologically and genetically, that we shouldnt be able to produce a healthy child.  Again, only time will tell, but that news is also very hopeful.

The biggest difference this time, honestly, is Xander.  Already in the brief time he has been a part of our lives, he has given so much healing to our hearts.  It is amazing the sense of peace that comes from a sweet little spirit coming to a family.  It truly is a miracle!  The amount of love and joy that he has given so quickly, has made so much difference.  I am so grateful to him and to his birth parents for this amazing gift that was so very needed.  Dont get me wrong, everything that happened before him is still gut wrenching and so hard, but it all led us to Xander, which while an incredibly difficult road, it had such a happy ending!  Had we not suffered with infertility and loss, we never would have looked to adoption at this stage in our lives.  There is no doubt in my mind that Xander was meant to come to our family and we are so very grateful that he did.   I am still incredibly anxious with this pregnancy.... I think I always will be, but it is very different this time.  It would be terrible to lose another child and we hope that never happens again, but regardless, we have been blessed to be Xanders parents and if we never are blessed with another child, We will still consider ourselves incredibly blessed.  This feeling and attitude has helped to survive the multiple doctors appointments and the medication and waiting and especially the unknown.


So here is a picture of the little peanut.  I am 10 and a half weeks and everything looks good.  My due date is right around Thanksgiving... Nov. 27th (for now) and Xander and this little peanut will be less than 10 months apart!!!  That part is a little crazy, but when they are older, I am sure we will absolutely love that they have a sibling to be so close with!